Ugh...

Today sucks I haven't slept for junk in two days, it is kinda hard on the body when it storms in the late night or early evening. I wake up in pain like no other, I sneezed and rather than cold chills it was like fire spreading in my veins but there were goose bumps. Weird huh? I started this at 20 to 8am my hands are pissed so it slow go today. I have no idea of this is ever going to stop but the more I think about I believe it won't. I guess it will do me well to just accept it I just still have a hard time wrapping my head around it. Still looking for the silver lining guess I am a hopeless hopeful. There was a positive reaction to this issue in the sense that the Fair weather friends have been disassociated. I did not realize how many friends I had that were not my friends. I am realizing things I would not have otherwise learned till much later in life. There is a silver lining I guess; some of the lessons I have learned are very painful and I think more easily learned later in life.
Loves...

still Wednesday...

So I got up and put dinner in the Crock pot at least, gotta feed Tj it is a true joy though.
There is a sense of pride watching him eat a Home cooked meal. We have had a long year plus in the mostly frozen or quickly grilled food. He is the thoughtful one he bought me a slow cooker cook book. He even went over the recipes with me and made sure we had the ingredients. God I love that man and I know how blessed I am to have him. I know exactly what Dale meant when he said "Don't you hurt him He Loves you." I am loved and that is what keeps me going.
Love is a wonderful thing that bridges any gap and strengthens over time. Ok I'm rambling gotta go.

Wednesday

So here we are wednesday again, more pressure changes and my left foot is turning in so walking is not really an option right now. Tj is working in the valley today so at least he is available if needed. The kids are all over the house it is so hot that they are playing all night so I'm not sleeping. I try to keep them away from Tj so he has enough rest to work smart. I am so tired but it is too hot during the day to sleep. My life is a pretty vicious circle right now and I'm not sure when it is going to change I'm just along for the ride. I have no control and that drives me nuts. I have to say
I hate this body, My hips are hurting as well as my knees no matter bent, straight they hurt.
I wish I had more exciting things to say but that is what today is.
Loves to all and I will hit publish I promise.

Another day....again

So Tj had to go to Vernal today and I couldn't go because he had to take an extra guy.
I would have just had him drop me off in Myton to see "Nanna".
Well the day has been very long and HOT but the barometric pressure is shifting and it is Killing me. I am glad I stayed home after all I guess, lol.
I have to be Insane, I wake up every day hoping for a different result.
Tj is on his way home but I am bored to tears.
well off to bed Loves.

Sorry I hit save not Publish ditz moment.

hair.....

So as you know I had my hair dyed today and I was hoping for Pink but I got way better. There are a few places my black hair dye didn't come out. Those have given so much dimension to my hair. I am so pleased with the results...I'm tickled Pink...(Sorry I love a good pun). I have a few pics on my FB page and I will have Tj take a few more tomorrow at the park. We are going to feed the ducks and geese. I also found out last night my Brothers girls are coming in to visit I am Elated there is not a word to describe the feeling I get when they are with me. Anyway loves have a good night.

Friday

Well yesterday Nanna came over to see me and stay the night.
The only thing that sucked is the migraine that would not go away right eye all the way to the back of my head. It was awesome still just knowing that my oldest bestest friend came to see me :P.
We made fajitas for dinner they were so yummy thank you Rancho Market for doing all the hard work. Not quite sure what today will hold but tomorrow I am going to dye my hair Pink what shade? I dunno but for the first time in my life I do not have to look professional so I am dying my hair pink! I hate this whole drama that is currently my life but I figure I gotta have some fun sometime. I will post a picture likely tomorrow. So until next time loves XOXOXO..

This week.....

So far this week has sucked the Dr they sent me to was a psychologist...GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
Why the hell do I have to spill my guts to a total stranger....No this one was different he was vcery cold and stated "I don't need to know that, or I don't care about that." I cried all day then slept all day on Wednesday. I am so frustrated I have had a migraine in my right eye back to the base of my skull. Another Glorious side effect of either the medicine or the disease. It gets hard not to just say FML eat the pills, Tj is always the reason I go on. I just love that man. He did take me to the park past week and I got some new pictures.



Well Nannas here lovve you all going to hang out with my best friend.

Wow I wrote this last Thursday

Where did the time go..

Tuesday I did not feel well and slept mostly. Yesterday however I was exhausted from going out. Tj got off early and took me to lunch then he took me to Wally world for Batting to make a Blanket.
I have been cutting squares for this blanket since last year I am almost ready. I found 17X20" squares for $1 think I may be able to get it done sooner with those as fillers. I am not however sure what to use for the back. I am thinking fleece because we have such cold winters. Anyway to make a long story short he ran me all over now I am exhausted. He has been so thoughtful and making sure I get out of the house. I love that man more every day, not a day goes by that he doesn't do everything he can to try to help me. Anyway mushy....

The weekend

Tj and I went to the park again yesterday Liberty park is no longer just your hippies hangout.
I love the updates they have made the park benches, the water play area but the gazebo on the lake. This is a picture of the bridge that goes to the island. I am going to take a lunch next time and eat out on the island. Next weekend is busy, Birthday, Wedding.
Can't wait

Tomorrow is friday

Sorry I have been less than prompt this week, I would like to place the blame on the weather.
We had hail the size of dimes outside and I have no Bear dog to snuggle with the thunder is loud and I can feel the lightening before I see it. The storms wash over me like a wall of water traveling average freeway speed. Sorry I have to go but this weekend is supposed to be good I am willing it.
We are going to have a yard sale hopefully clear out some stuff from the basement. May next week bring better weather and spirits because we all need both.

Tuesday

Well my feet went have been binge eating again, thinking I may have to just give up shoes all together. Nothing fits, my Adidas slippers are cute but Damn.. I keep trying to cross my legs ha ha ha stupid idea; I am sick and damn tired of this garbage. I want a Pepsi and have no way to get one. These are the times that are hard: I am only 32 years ago but a walk to the store is impossible though it is only 4 blocks away. My legs are numb from the shins down, I keep talking to my toes but they do not respond. I am so scared that this will not be the worst of it. How can I be a housewife if it consists of sitting in bed wanting to stand up I am afraid that is not enough, what am I? Did I ever think Tj would leave NO!!! Tj is the most consistent part of my Whole Life. After all we have been through there is not a worry in my heart about my marriage. I am however afraid I have not been as focused on making him see his value as I have not found mine. I am working on it.... tomorrow is another day the concern will change but the blog address will be the same. LOL sorry Puns I love them.

The weekend

This weekend was not bad at all other than I had to postpone the yard sale again stupid weather.
I did get Tj into the crawl space to help get things organized. I am getting rid of Everything well alot. I am just done having so much stuff and no where to put it.
We went to the park on Sunday it was quite fun. I got a feather extension in my hair it is pretty cool I did curl it and it styled right with my hair. Thinking I may take it up as a money making idea, I still have hemp too I could do those too. I wish I could say I feel better or even ok but the B pressure is still killing me. I wish it would just leave stupid weather. Sorry I did not put this up yesterday.